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I realize how much I’ve changed since I first left Vancouver. I used to reminisce all the friends that I missed and missed me back but each time I go back I see less people, less people care, distant strangers seem much more fun and those who were so close are now so distant. Whether it’s them or me.. or maybe time, things have changed.

The trip back to motherland renewed my friendships with my childhood friends and no matter where we are in the world, it still makes me warm and fuzzy knowing that we always share the milestones in our lives with each other.

I’ve come to a place in my life where all the preparation I’ve made through school, through modelling, through acting, through work is starting to unfold. I’ve come to a place with a fork in the road that has so many different roads it’s so hard to look back to even think about where I’ve been two seconds ago.

Life is moving fast. I can’t believe I’m growing up. I can’t believe i’m 23. I always ready to tell someone I’m 19 because I’ve always been a baby, been 10-15 years younger than the rest of the world… and for the first time, I’m older now.  Perhaps part of it is not wanting to assume the responsibility of an adult, making decisions that matter. Nonetheless, one thing I have yet to do is embrace it and not fear it.

I’m truly sad to see that those I once kept so close are not so close anymore…but I’m not sad about the new friends I’ve made, in fact they are who carry me on to where I am now. For that, I’m thankful.